If I got one it would actually make my night
To my friends IRL, it’s okay. Right here, right now, you don’t have to do anything. Go on as if life is usual. I’m just fed up and venting.
For the past week (almost) I’ve had migraines every day. Today, I had two of them. I’ve been on two different medications, both with sucky side effects, and I feel like a whiny li’l snot for talking about it to anyone.
But honestly, this bites. Bad.
When I get a migraine, I can’t move. I can’t hardly walk. I’m just in pain, sensitive to every little noise, all bright lights, and it can take anywhere from half an hour to an hour for my meds to actually work, and when they do, I get terrible vertigo. I still have to work, and I still have to pay for some pretty expensive mistakes. Things aren’t so hot right now.
I still have to go back to school, and that’s what scares the crap out of me. College is hard enough without having to fight your own brain. I don’t want to have to wake up scared that I’m going to be blinded by mind-numbing pain in the middle of my day when I still have classes to attend, volunteer groups to go to, and homework to do.
I have no doubt that God watches over me. God still holds my hand, and I’ve felt closer to him because of the health problems. But it’s wearing me down a lot, and I feel a lot like giving up, staying home, and holing up in my closet until Kingdom come.